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Thursday, September 8, 2016

So when did I become so afraid?

The last time I spend quality time with my daughter before she passed away, she wanted me to unhook all the wires they had on her in the hospital and take her to the bathroom.  I wanted to call the nurse for assistance and she looked at me and said "when did you get so scared?"  I had no answer, so I unhooked her and I took her to the bathroom and then re-hooked her up.

Hadn't thought much more about her comment until the other day when I was looking at my granddaughter's painting.   We sat in the same class and our pictures are so totally different.  I was so timid, notice my cupcakes are all at about the same level and pretty lined up.

My cream frosting is all exactly 4 layers, stacked as neatly as I could get it.......  My granddaughter had a lot more fun with her painting.  She experienced with color and mixing them up.  Her cupcakes probably look more realistic than mine (or at least if you are novice baker)  And her cherries sit like they were actually plopped on top of the frosting vs. mine.   And her lines are how she wanted them and if the cupcake didn't quite fit neatly in the area, oh well.

So when did I become so afraid to color outside of the lines???  At what point did I think I needed to follow the directions to the letter ALL the time????   Did it happen when I wasn't looking?  Or were these decisions I made?

I used to look at the directions and then do my own thing, change things up a little bit.  I didn't hesitate when I sewed the kids clothes, if they wanted a bubble dress, they had it, if they wanted a formal dress, it was a done deal.  I wanted lace dollies, so I just get a smaller crochet hook and thread and made up my pattern as I went along.  So what happen, when did I get so scared? Is that a sign of getting old?

I have so many canvases, material for quilts and yarn for sweaters that I don't do because I'm so afraid I'm going to make a mistake.  Maybe that is why I like counted cross stitching so much - its like painting by numbers - you know exactly where to put your x and in what color and all the x's look exactly the same.  You have a set of directions that are easy to follow.

So I need to get out of my comfort zone, to get adventurous again and realize that making a mistake is not the end of the world.  I need to make my fluffy stuff lopsided once in a while and add sprinkles to my life.

I need to stop being so afraid and just do it.  Will my quilts get make anytime soon?  Probably not, but I think I'll be pulling out some needlepoints that I've been waiting to do, but been afraid to start.

So here is to getting out of your comfort zone......



  1. Great post Sandy, and I love your cupcakes...makes me hungry :)
    Have a great weekend

  2. A lovely post - very inspiring. I like both of your paintings.